>I’m not ready for the school year to start. I mean, I am in some ways — syllabuses and handouts are mostly made — but I’m just not in the spirit yet. I’m in some kind of funk. I’m sure it will be better once my classes start tomorrow, but right now I’m filled with some kind of bizarre combination of first-day anxiety and yet also ennui. For one thing, you’d think I’d be on campus to be around for the new and returning grad students, but I’m hiding at home. I’m working on non-teaching things, and Mondays are going to be my dday at home this semester, so I’m trying to establish a routine, but I really do feel like I’m hiding. Granted, I was on campus 9-5 M-F all last week, but still, shouldn’t I be there today? But I can’t bring myself to get in the teaching mode.
Case in point: I’m teaching in our weird satellite campus in BFE (OK, technically it’s only 2 miles away, but it seems far) that used to be a CC that we swallowed up at some point in the past, and I haven’t even bothered to go check out the classroom. I haven’t been there since 2005, and I’m not even sure I remember what street it’s on! And I teach tomorrow!
See, I told you I’m not ready.
What’s up with this? I like teaching, “Back to School” is my favorite season of the year. Why do I feel so weird this year?